Eyes of Faith

Hello people today was a great day with my Church, today’s word focused on the way we look at things. Let us consider 5 Biblical examples.

  1. Abram and his nephew Lot (Genesis 13).

This is about the time before God named Abram, Abraham. The verse to focus on, needs some back ground information. Abram is very rich with sheep, goats, cattle, silver and gold. Lot also had sheep, goats, and cattle, as well as his own family and servants. And so there was not enough pasture land for the two of them to stay together, because they had too many animals. So quarrels broke out between the men who took care of Abram’s animals and those who took care of Lot’s animals. Abram one day approached Lot and told him of the situation and told him that since the land could not support the two of them, it would be better if they live seperately. Abram gave Lot the option of which land he would choose to live on, Lot was given the chance to choose first. Let’s check out what happened.

Genesis 13:10-13

10 Lot looked round and saw that the whole Jordan Valley, all the way to Zoar, had plenty of water, like the Garden of the Lord or like the land of Egypt. (This was before the Lord had destroyed the cities of Sodom and Gomorrah.) 11 So Lot chose the whole Jordan Valley for himself and moved away towards the east. That is how the two men parted. 12 Abram stayed in the land of Canaan, and Lot settled among the cities in the valley and camped near Sodom, 13 whose people were wicked and sinned against the Lord.

As you can see Lot trusted his own sight, what appealed to him is what he chose. Now let’s move a little further to see what happens about Abram.

Genesis 13:14-18

14 After Lot had left, the Lord said to Abram, “From where you are, look carefully in all directions. 15 I am going to give you and your descendants all the land that you see, and it will be yours for ever. 16 I am going to give you so many descendants that no one will be able to count them all; it would be as easy to count all the specks of dust on earth! 17 Now, go and look over the whole land, because I am going to give it all to you.” 18 So Abram moved his camp and settled near the sacred trees of Mamre at Hebron, and there he built an altar to the Lord.

As you may see that Abraham trusted in God more than in what things appeared to be to him. And incase you do not know as time passes, Abraham is blessed even more & Lot practically looses everything even his wife.

  1. Peter walks on water with Jesus

Matthew 14:22-32

22 Then Jesus made the disciples get into the boat and go on ahead to the other side of the lake, while he sent the people away. 23 After sending the people away, he went up a hill by himself to pray. When evening came, Jesus was there alone; 24 and by this time the boat was far out in the lake, tossed about by the waves, because the wind was blowing against it.

25 Between three and six o’clock in the morning Jesus came to the disciples, walking on the water. 26 When they saw him walking on the water, they were terrified. “It’s a ghost!” they said, and screamed with fear.

27 Jesus spoke to them at once. “Courage!” he said. “It is I. Don’t be afraid!”

28 Then Peter spoke up. “Lord, if it is really you, order me to come out on the water to you.”

29 “Come!” answered Jesus. So Peter got out of the boat and started walking on the water to Jesus. 30 But when he noticed the strong wind, he was afraid and started to sink down in the water. “Save me, Lord!” he cried.

31 At once Jesus reached out and grabbed hold of him and said, “How little faith you have! Why did you doubt?”

32 They both got into the boat, and the wind died down. 33 Then the disciples in the boat worshipped Jesus. “Truly you are the Son of God!” they exclaimed.

As you can see from the above, Peter seeks to believe and call out to Jesus as Lord (almighty and sovereign) and says that if it is Him (Jesus) then let him (Peter) come walking out of the boat to meet with Jesus. What does Jesus reply? COME! Apostle Peter was indeed rewarded for his faith in Jesus for he walked on water right till a strong wind caused him to doubt. You see Peter did not try to rationalize; his eyes were the eyes of faith. He sought faith in Jesus and even asked for a sign to justify his faith in Jesus. These miracles are always on role for those who seek and find Jesus.

  1. The disobedience of the first man and woman against God.

As you may know the first man and woman God made was Adam and Eve. God made them and they were given the beautiful garden of Eden to stay in but God warned them not eat the fruit of the tree of knowledge of what was right and wrong, for then they would fall under their own condemnation. However Satan succeeds in tempting the man and woman into eating the fruit.

Genesis 3:6

6 The woman saw how beautiful the tree was and how good its fruit would be to eat, and she thought how wonderful it would be to become wise. So she took some of the fruit and ate it. Then she gave some to her husband, and he also ate it.

You can see that Eve like Lot looked and gets taken in by what is pleasing to her eyes. She puts her perspective before God’s warning & what does this lead to …getting kicked out of the Garden of Eden. Why? Because in the same garden was the tree of life, whose fruit would enable them to live forever. Can you imagine a person living under his own condemnation forever? What misery will that be? Suicide would seem like a blessing in such a dammed situation.

However the tree of life we now have is God’s free gift for the world, on this tree hung a solution for condemnation from all sin. The tree I am talking about is the cross on which hung the perfect sacrifice (Jesus) for all sin….salvation purely by grace….Amen.

  1. Satan tries to tempt Jesus

Luke 4:1-13

1 Jesus returned from the Jordan full of the Holy Spirit and was led by the Spirit into the desert, 2 where he was tempted by the Devil for 40 days. In all that time he ate nothing, so that he was hungry when it was over.

3 The Devil said to him, “If you are God’s Son, order this stone to turn into bread.”

4 But Jesus answered, “The scripture says, ‘Human beings cannot live on bread alone.’ ”

5 Then the Devil took him up and showed him in a second all the kingdoms of the world. 6 “I will give you all this power and all this wealth,” the Devil told him. “It has all been handed over to me, and I can give it to anyone I choose. 7 All this will be yours, then, if you worship me.”

8 Jesus answered, “The scripture says, ‘Worship the Lord your God and serve only him!’ ”

9 Then the Devil took him to Jerusalem and set him on the highest point of the Temple, and said to him, “If you are God’s Son, throw yourself down from here. 10 For the scripture says, ‘God will order his angels to take good care of you.’

11 It also says, ‘They will hold you up with their hands so that not even your feet will be hurt on the stones.’ ”

12 But Jesus answered, “The scripture says, ‘Do not put the Lord your God to the test.’ ”

13 When the Devil finished tempting Jesus in every way, he left him for a while.

You can see that Jesus does not act violently or try to show Satan that he can be worse. You can clearly see that Jesus is in full control and Satan is the person who appears to be worried. All his efforts to lure Jesus, fail. You may look at the above and see that even in the weakness of Jesus’ 40 day fast; Jesus not only puts up a really good fight but has Satan all worried. Getting Satan worried was as easy for Jesus as twiddling His thumbs. Jesus in the weakness of His 40 day fast handles the baddest dude in all creation and still comes out victorious.

The above verse also shows Jesus trusting His Father, please do not make this to be that Jesus was just a man/prophet. Jesus is fully man and fully God. In fact the control which Jesus showed against Satan, even in His weakness of His fasting, was something not even the strongest of men has ever Biblically shown.

However the Bible does say that while Jesus was on earth, He lowered Himself to something lower than even the angels because He accepted His Father’s plan for the Salvation of man, all out of humility, for He alone could steer through with this plan.

Hebrews 2:9,14

But we do see Jesus, who for a little while was made lower than the angels, so that through God’s grace he should die for everyone. We see him now crowned with glory and honour because of the death he suffered.


14 Since the children, as he calls them, are people of flesh and blood, Jesus himself became like them and shared their human nature. He did this so that through his death he might destroy the Devil, who has the power over death,

Philippians 2:8 (About Jesus)

He was humble and walked the path of obedience all the way to death — his death on the cross.

  1. The thief with the eyes of faith.

Luke 23:32-43

32 Two other men, both of them criminals, were also led out to be put to death with Jesus. 33 When they came to the place called “The Skull”, they crucified Jesus there, and the two criminals, one on his right and the other on his left. 34 Jesus said, “Forgive them, Father! They don’t know what they are doing.” They divided his clothes among themselves by throwing dice. 35 The people stood there watching while the Jewish leaders jeered at him: “He saved others; let him save himself if he is the Messiah whom God has chosen!”

36 The soldiers also mocked him: they came up to him and offered him cheap wine, 37 and said, “Save yourself if you are the king of the Jews!”

38 Above him were written these words: “This is the King of the Jews.”

39 One of the criminals hanging there hurled insults at him: “Aren’t you the Messiah? Save yourself and us!”

40 The other one, however, rebuked him, saying, “Don’t you fear God? You received the same sentence he did. 41 Ours, however, is only right, because we are getting what we deserve for what we did; but he has done no wrong.” 42 And he said to Jesus, “Remember me, Jesus, when you come as King!”

43 Jesus said to him, “I promise you that today you will be in Paradise with me.”

You can see that the criminal with the eyes of faith gets the free gift of eternal life ….by grace through his faith in Jesus.

From all the above 5 points, it is important to note that when God speaks to you, it mostly will be something you cannot rationalize, because if you could have rationalized it then you would have done it, without Him speaking to you. I would like to close with 4 lovely pieces of scripture.

Hebrews 11:6

6 No one can please God without faith, for whoever comes to God must have faith that God exists and rewards those who seek him.

1 Corinthians 2:8-10 (from the letter of Apostle Paul to the Church of Corinth)

8None of the rulers of this age understood it, for if they had, they would not have crucified the Lord of glory. 9However, as it is written:
“No eye has seen,
no ear has heard,
no mind has conceived
what God has prepared for those who love him”— 10but God has revealed it to us by his Spirit.

2 Corinthians 4:18

So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.

2 Corinthians 5:7

7 For our life is a matter of faith, not of sight.

So people listen not to your own perception but listen to Jesus & Him alone in union with the Father and the Spirit, for He knows what is best for you.


Hi folks I write again, as almost always, this is from the Word brought brilliantly to our Church by one of the youth members, which was his first time. The topic is on forgiveness. I know that this is very easy to talk about and just as hard to practice.

There are many reasons as to why we need to forgive, the three main ones are.

  1. Jesus teaches His people to forgive.

In Luke 6:37, Jesus teaches His people to forgive and be forgiven. Luke 6:27-30 even teaches to do good to those who wrong you.

  1. God is the judge not us.

Many times we take it upon ourselves to repay wrong with wrong, that is to take revenge. The world considers revenge to be something what is right but is not so in the eyes of Jesus. How could we say that God is good if he allows wrong to repay wrong. If we are to avenge the wrong done to us then that sends a signal to God saying “I can neither wait for your course of action nor do I feel that You will repay the wrong to the extent of the hurt caused”. That is something like when someone murders a person close to you; you take it upon yourself to take revenge because you feel that the police or government will do nothing. So you see taking your own course of action for revenge speaks very little about your faith in God & it speaks of even lesser faith for those who terrorize people in the name of their god. So we must remember that the God that truly exist as God, will judge & punish the guilty (Deuteronomy 32:35) & just as when we go into restaurants, we leave the cooking to the cook, in the same when we come to Jesus, we need to leave the judging to Jesus (John 9:39).

  1. To continue to live a blessed life.

I am sure you will understand that you can only enjoy and count your blessing if you stop counting the wrongs done unto you & brooding over them. I have not lived my full earthly life as yet but till now I have never come across anyone who is so good at multi-tasking that he is happy and sad at the same time. People who believe in Jesus cannot afford to be unforgiving because they are ambassadors of God in this world.

So here are the 3 very good reasons as to why we need to forgive but how do we go about it. The answer is love. The love that I am talking about is very different from what the world knows as love. You may read 1 Corinthians 13, to know the kind of love the Bible talks about. This is one thing I am unable to put in words. I feel infinitely further than couples who are unable express their love for each other in words. In John13: 34, Jesus gives us a new commandment, to love one another.

So why is Jesus making so much emphasis on love? How exactly does love work where forgiving is concerned? 1 Corinthians 13:5, stand out boldly saying that love keeps no records of wrongs. You may think very little against keeping records of the wrong done unto you. Many a times when someone would wrong me, I would say in my mind “I will remember this”. I have even heard many people say when they are angry & hurt “I will not forget this”. That is precisely what keeping records of wrongs is about. We do not remember the wrongs just to exercise our memory, we keep the records of the wrongs done so that we can pay the concerned people back the same way in good time & till that time comes to pass we will walk in His faith or live our lives with a pebble in our shoes. Wouldn’t you agree that marriages would be so much happier if husbands and wives did not keep records of the wrongs done by their partner? The only person who existed in the beginning, exist even now & will continue to exist forever, who ONLY can remember the wrongs done unto Him in order that his transgressors be forgiven, is Jesus & the reason He alone can do this is because He is God. The rules of science, nature & world do not apply to Him. When Jesus went to the cross, every cry of His from the torture, was a cry remembering that man needed to be saved from his sins. Jesus remembers his torture and death on the cross not to take revenge on man but to know that through faith in Him, man is saved.

According to the world, it is a good thing to forgive if the wrong doer sincerely apologizes for the wrong he has done. But for people who believe in Jesus, it is very important that we forgive even if the wrong doer is not at all sorry for what he has done. This is because as Luke 6:37 says it is not for us to judge and condemn even the wrongs that are done unto to us as mentioned in point 2.

If you have watched a few action movies, you will see how the bad guys attack or capture or kill the hero’s family or close friend & how the hero does some special training and returns the favour with generous interest. How good it is to see such instant action in just a 2 or 3 hour film. In real life that hero would be living with bitterness, with the hope of revenge. That bitterness will wear him out rather than driving him to achieve his goal over such a long period, God willing if the revenge worked out then our hero will find it hard to break the habit of living in bitterness and then he would not be a good guy or hero at all. That’s the movies for you, showing the world what they want to see because that is what they think is right.

Let us consider some stories in the Bible to show you God’s standard of forgiveness.

The prodigal (lost) son (Luke 15:11-32): There was a rich man with 2 sons. The younger one takes his share of wealth and squanders it & returns. The father not only accepts and forgives him but throws a big feast because of hi return. The elder son did not like this because even though he was a good son, his father did not throw him any feast. However his father explained that his son was lost but is now found. His love for his younger son helped him overlook what he did & forgive him.

The adulterous woman (John 8:1-11): An adulterous woman was brought to Jesus who was caught in the act of adultery. Now according to the Law, she was to be stoned to death but what does Jesus say? He says let he who has not sinned pick up the first stone. All the people throw their stones away and leave one by one. The only one then standing with the woman was Jesus. Allow me to quote some of it.

John 8:7-11

7 As they stood there asking him questions, he straightened himself up and said to them, “Whichever one of you has committed no sin may throw the first stone at her.” 8 Then he bent over again and wrote on the ground. 9 When they heard this, they all left, one by one, the older ones first. Jesus was left alone, with the woman still standing there. 10 He straightened himself up and said to her, “Where are they? Is there no one left to condemn you?”

11 “No one, sir,” she answered.

“Well, then,” Jesus said, “I do not condemn you either. Go, but do not sin again.”]

In the above scripture, the reason the only one who remained with the woman was Jesus is because he is without sin, he has always been & will forever be. He is God and being God, he forgave the woman & when he did not condemn her no one could, because whoever comes or are brought in their despair to Jesus, are relieved by His judgment.

Isaiah 58:9

When you pray, I will answer you. When you call to me, I will respond.

“If you put an end to oppression, to every gesture of contempt, and to every evil word;

People, who have not accepted Jesus as their King, find it impossibly hard to forgive. Trying to forgive someone & rejecting the forgiveness of your sins by Jesus is like someone trying to lend money without having a steady income. To the world forgiveness is not harming that person in return & what goes along with this is that they will have nothing to do with that person, you know, the forgive and forget attitude which is a futile attempt to do away with the hurt feeling. Without Jesus, your attempt to forgive will hurt you and cause you even more grief when you see the wrong doer. With Jesus, you just need to take that first step of faith & not only forgive but accept that person with love (Luke 6:28). If that person rejects you then leave it to God while keeping him in prayer but if he accepts then leave to God’s Sovereign Spirit to take control of that situation. For starters forgiveness will hurt when you think about it because your conscience will try to talk you out of it. Jesus will make sure that the result is good & He will reward you for your faith in Him (Matthew 15:28). Jesus’ style of forgiveness is action oriented, to do with the heart, not just words (1 John 3:18). If you have trouble forgiving this way then pray (talk: talking to God is prayer) to Jesus, ask Him to send His Spirit upon you, so that you may have victory over all your hurt feeling. Jesus holds all authority over the past present and future & he will make changes in your life to help you be happy in due time even when you are in the company of the wrong doer, that is the power of my God.

Just one last thing, it is important that my God (Father Son & Spirit) being a God of love also pronounces judgment with punishment. All of creation are spiritual orphans. Just as man would call an orphan his son if that orphan were close to his own son, in the same way we are God’s children only if Jesus is King in our hearts. Just as a loving parent corrects but never severely punishes his son. In the same way God corrects his people, who are union with Him through His Son & for this same reason only we are saved, all because of Jesus.

Psalms 49

Hi people I would like to share with you something beautiful about Jesus in the Old Testament.

I will be speaking of Psalm 49 from the Old Testament. I would first like to quote Psalm 49:7-9.

7 A person can never redeem himself;

he cannot pay God the price for his life,

8 because the payment for a human life is too great.

What he could pay would never be enough

9 to keep him from the grave,

to let him live for ever.

The above shows that there is nothing a man can do to earn eternal life, whether it be doing good works, donating a lot to charity, praying, fasting, visiting holy places & he certainly cannot bribe his way into heaven.

Now I would quote verse 15 of the same Psalm.

15 But God will rescue me;

he will save me from the power of death.

You see from the above verse. It is only God who can save you & this God is Jesus. He has paid the price of your sins on that cross. You were to earn death for your sins but it is Jesus who took the death penalty for you. So you see God has offered you eternal life through Christ and all you need to do is believe in what Jesus has done for you.

Now I would like to quote verses 18 to 20 again from the same Psalm.

18 Even if he is satisfied with this life

and is praised because he is successful,

19 he will join all his ancestors in death,

where the darkness lasts for ever.

20 His greatness cannot save him from death;

he will still die like the animals.

The above verses show no mater how much a man is satisfied with his life and no matter how successful he becomes he will still reap the wages of his sin, which is death, unless as from verse 15 he accepts Jesus.

Some great Biblical video documentaries online

Hi folks, here are some amazing videos of proof of the things that written in the Bible. Check it out, it is not only eye opening but shows the Bible to be true word for word. The Ark of the Covenant video is a master blaster because it shows Jesus as the Savior of the Jews and the world, the Son of God.

Mt. Sinai

Red Sea Crossing

Ark of the Covenant

Noah’s Ark

The Destruction of Sodom and Gomorrah


Aleph Tav

Yeast of the Pharisees and Sadducees

Hi people today I would like to share something and clear a common misconception people have about God. I feel this post is more to do with unburdening people of tiresome rituals, which people have been taught with the aim of being put right with their god. This is taken partly from last Sunday’s word at Church.

Allow me to quote

Luke 18:9-14

9 Jesus also told this parable to people who were sure of their own goodness and despised everybody else. 10 “Once there were two men who went up to the Temple to pray: one was a Pharisee, the other a tax collector.

11 “The Pharisee stood apart by himself and prayed,‘I thank you, God, that I am not greedy, dishonest, or an adulterer, like everybody else. I thank you that I am not like that tax collector over there. 12 I fast two days a week, and I give you a tenth of all my income.’

13 “But the tax collector stood at a distance and would not even raise his face to heaven, but beat on his breast and said, ‘God, have pity on me, a sinner!’ 14 I tell you,” said Jesus, “the tax collector, and not the Pharisee, was in the right with God when he went home. For all who make themselves great will be humbled, and all who humble themselves will be made great.”


  1. A tax collector was a person who collected unpaid taxes from people. The tax collector of Jesus’ time had the full backing of ruling empire and so they did everything to squeeze the money out of the people no matter what was the person’s circumstance. We don’t have tax collectors today but we have something similar and those are loan sharks. Tax collectors like loan sharks were greedy and took more money than they were supposed to.
  2. The Pharisees were like Jewish priest.

Incase you would like to know, the Bible consist of the Old and New Testament. The Testament consists mostly of History and God’s message to His people, which came through the prophets. It is important to note that the time difference between the last record of the Old Testament till the time Jesus arrived was roughly 4 centuries, 400 years.

So knowing this, I would like to add that in these 4 centuries many traditions sprang up and got associated with the Jewish religious belief. When Jesus came there were 3 major religious Jewish societies the Pharisees, the Sadducees, and the Essenes, the Pharisees were often the most vocal and influential.

God never intended for his worship to be ritualistic because when something becomes ritualistic it looses its significance. Let me give you a real life example, when someone answers the phone, what is the first thing he says? “HELLO”…isn’t it.  However when this same someone comes across someone he knows on the road, what is it that he “sometimes” uses to greet that known person? “Hello”. Now tell me which “Hello” signifies a “real Hello”. The “Hello” which came out proactively to greet another right! Not the “Hello” over the phone because that has been said so many times that it has almost lost its meaning and significance. Saying “Hello” over the phone started of with the idea of greeting the caller, in the same way in the above mentioned 400 years the Jewish leaders started maintaining traditions for a purpose which they thought would honour God. Allow me to quote from Mark 7:3-4.

Mark 7:3-4

For the Pharisees, as well as the rest of the Jews, follow the teaching they received from their ancestors: they do not eat unless they wash their hands in the proper way; 4 nor do they eat anything that comes from the market unless they wash it first. And they follow many other rules which they have received, such as the proper way to wash cups, pots, copper bowls, and beds.

When Jesus came, he warned His disciples against religious leaders who forced empty rituals upon people in the name of God. Let me quote to you about this from

Matthew 16:6 (Jesus to His disciples)

Jesus said to them, “Take care; be on your guard against the yeast of the Pharisees and Sadducees.”

Luke 12:1

As thousands of people crowded together, so that they were stepping on each other, Jesus said first to his disciples, “Be on guard against the yeast of the Pharisees — I mean their hypocrisy.

Note: The Sadducees recognized only the written letter of the Tanakh or Torah (laws) and rejecting life after death, while the Pharisees held to their own interpretations additional to the written texts (Old Testament).

To keep you in the loop, Yeast are specie of fungi. They are used often in the baking of bread. When the dough of the bread is ready a small amount of yeast is mixed in and the dough is left for some time, the dough then raises (become bigger) without increasing in matter.

This is what Jesus warned His disciples about, about the Pharisees and Sadducees.  The teachings of Pharisees and Sadducees were like that little yeast added to God’s Word in order to burden people. They were like people who liked to be in control of common men. This yeast was to puff up their pride as religious leaders without adding any substance to it. Earlier in the Old Testament God (Jesus) spoke ahead to Moses [much before He (Jesus) arrived here on earth] & asked for unleavened (without yeast) bread offerings.

Leviticus 8:26 (Moses’ offering to the Lord during the ordination of Aaron and his sons)

Then he took one loaf of bread from the basket of unleavened bread dedicated to the Lord, one loaf made with oil, and one biscuit, and he put them on top of the fat and the right hind leg.

Leviticus 10:12

Moses said to Aaron and his two remaining sons, Eleazar and Ithamar, “Take the grain offering that is left over from the food offered to the Lord, make unleavened bread with it and eat it beside the altar, because this offering is very holy.

Jesus (God) never wanted bread with yeast as an offering because He (Jesus) foresaw and knew that the yeast symbolized what would be added to His word (Old Testament) and the end product would be something that was not His. Allow me to support this with some more scripture; this is Jesus’ reply to the Pharisees in regards to the same topic.

Mark 7:6-9

6 Jesus answered them, “How right Isaiah was when he prophesied about you! You are hypocrites, just as he wrote:

‘These people, says God, honour me with their words,

but their heart is really far away from me.

7 It is no use for them to worship me,

because they teach human rules

as though they were God’s laws!’

8 “You put aside God’s command and obey human teachings.”

9 And Jesus continued, “You have a clever way of rejecting God’s law in order to uphold your own teaching.

Note: Isaiah is a prophet of the Old Testament.

Reading all this, you might now not have a very good opinion about such religious leaders but all through time there have been people like these, before & after Jesus coming, people who have enslaved people in the name of their god & with the idea of maintaining ritual cleanliness. The rules that such religious leaders; have burdened their people with, range right from eating, drinking, dressing, worship, washing, praying and even using the toilet. These may sound ridiculous from a secular point of view but this is real life stuff. Would you like to know as to what Jesus says about spiritual cleanliness?

Mark 7:14-23

14 Then Jesus called the crowd to him once more and said to them, “Listen to me, all of you, and understand. 15 There is nothing that goes into a person from the outside which can make him ritually unclean. Rather, it is what comes out of a person that makes him unclean.”

17 When he left the crowd and went into the house, his disciples asked him to explain this saying. 18 “You are no more intelligent than the others,” Jesus said to them. “Don’t you understand? Nothing that goes into a person from the outside can really make him unclean, 19 because it does not go into his heart but into his stomach and then goes on out of the body.” (In saying this, Jesus declared that all foods are fit to be eaten.)

20 And he went on to say, “It is what comes out of a person that makes him unclean. 21 For from the inside, from a person’s heart, come the evil ideas which lead him to do immoral things, to rob, kill, 22 commit adultery, be greedy, and do all sorts of evil things; deceit, indecency, jealousy, slander, pride, and folly — 23 all these evil things come from inside a person and make him unclean.”

What I would like you to gather from all this is that, there is freedom in Jesus freedom not only from empty rituals but also freedom from sin.

Colossians 2:6-8….20-23 (Apostle Paul to the Church of Colossae)

6 Since you have accepted Christ Jesus as Lord, live in union with him. 7 Keep your roots deep in him, build your lives on him, and become stronger in your faith, as you were taught. And be filled with thanksgiving.

8 See to it, then, that no one enslaves you by means of the worthless deceit of human wisdom, which comes from the teachings handed down by human beings and from the ruling spirits of the universe, and not from Christ.


20 You have died with Christ and are set free from the ruling spirits of the universe. Why, then, do you live as though you belonged to this world? Why do you obey such rules as 21 “Don’t handle this,” “Don’t taste that,” “Don’t touch the other”? 22 All these refer to things which become useless once they are used; they are only human rules and teachings. 23 Of course such rules appear to be based on wisdom in their forced worship of angels, and false humility, and severe treatment of the body; but they have no real value in controlling physical passions.

Hebrews 9:14

Since this is true, how much more is accomplished by the blood of Christ! Through the eternal Spirit he offered himself as a perfect sacrifice to God. His blood will purify our consciences from useless rituals, so that we may serve the living God.

Romans 6:23

For sin pays its wage — death; but God’s free gift is eternal life in union with Christ Jesus our Lord.

So this message like all the other messages comes to the same conclusion; come to Jesus and know Him for who is, in doing so have freedom and a healthy relationship with Almighty God (Father Son and Holy Spirit). This is something infinitely more than rituals as empty as a telephone “Hello”.

Psalms 146:7 (Old Testament)

he judges in favour of the oppressed and gives food to the hungry. The Lord sets prisoners free

Romans 3:24 (New Testament)

But by the free gift of God’s grace all are put right with him through Christ Jesus, who sets them free.

Why do the wicked prosper?

Hi folks today, I write and share after a very long time. There is something which I know many unbelievers question. The question is that if God is good and just then why do the wicked prosper?

Yeah I have heard and seen many making a good living by cheating people. If any of you are not even interested in this article then it would most probably mean that you to believe that cheating is a sure shot way to success. May be you are even practicing this idea. Yeah I’ve seen cheaters & what I’ve noticed is that their idea of right and wrong is all knotted up. To them trusting or listening to God is either secondary or God is only to be involved during their ritualistic prayer.

From a Biblical point of view, we are all sinners, right from the most religious of people to the worst of sinners. Allow me to give you 3 Biblical examples of people who have changed drastically just by encountering Jesus.

  1. Mathew: Before Jesus called Matthew (Mat 9:9) to join Him in His ministry. Mathew was a tax collector. Allow me to tell you, what the job of a tax collector was. A tax collector was a person who collected unpaid taxes from people. The tax collectors of Jesus’ time had the full backing of ruling empire and so they did everything to squeeze the money out of the people no matter what the person’s circumstance was. We don’t have tax collectors today but we have something similar and those are loan sharks. Tax collectors like loan sharks were greedy and took more money than they were supposed to. The advantage that tax collectors had was the ruling empire backing in all that they did. Mathew meets with Jesus and his life is transformed. He goes from “tax collector” to “man of God”. He travels and preaches the good news of free eternal life in Jesus, in places including Jerusalem and Persia & died as a Martyr proclaiming Jesus in Ethiopia.
  1. Zacchaeus: Zacchaeus too was a tax collector. Allow me to quote from the Bible about Zacchaeus.

Luke 19:1-10

1 Jesus went on into Jericho and was passing through. 2 There was a chief tax collector there named Zacchaeus, who was rich. 3 He was trying to see who Jesus was, but he was a little man and could not see Jesus because of the crowd. 4 So he ran ahead of the crowd and climbed a sycomore tree to see Jesus, who was going to pass that way. 5 When Jesus came to that place, he looked up and said to Zacchaeus, “Hurry down, Zacchaeus, because I must stay in your house today.”

6 Zacchaeus hurried down and welcomed him with great joy. 7 All the people who saw it started grumbling, “This man has gone as a guest to the home of a sinner!”

8 Zacchaeus stood up and said to the Lord, “Listen, sir! I will give half my belongings to the poor, and if I have cheated anyone, I will pay back four times as much.”

9 Jesus said to him, “Salvation has come to this house today, for this man, also, is a descendant of Abraham. 10 The Son of Man came to seek and to save the lost.”

  1. Saul: Saul was hater of Christians. He used to go seeking underground Churches and putting Christians to death. At the time of the early Church, Christians could not practice their faith in the open. A person believing and worshiping Jesus was put to death. This exist even today in a few countries but the Bible says (Mat 16:18) that the gates of hell will never be able to withstand the power by which the Church moves forward. So the Church prevails. So coming back to Saul, one day while he was on his was to Damascus to attack the Church there, on the way a bright light from the sky struck him and turned him blind and from that light Jesus spoke. Allow me to quote once more from my Bible.

Acts 9:3-5

3 As Saul was coming near the city of Damascus, suddenly a light from the sky flashed round him. 4 He fell to the ground and heard a voice saying to him, “Saul, Saul! Why do you persecute me?”

5 “Who are you, Lord?” he asked.

“I am Jesus, whom you persecute,” the voice said.

Saul is then prayed for by a Christian and his vision returns and he now becomes a changed man. He then goes about many places preaching the free gift of eternal life ready for those willing to believe in Jesus. He is finally beheaded and so dies a martyr for God’s people.

So you these were 3 wicked people are transformed by the person Jesus. I would like to quote some scripture where wicked people and the love of God are concerned.

Luke 6:35

No! Love your enemies and do good to them; lend and expect nothing back. You will then have a great reward, and you will be children of the Most High God. For he is good to the ungrateful and the wicked.

Romans 5:6

For when we were still helpless, Christ died for the wicked at the time that God chose.

Being wicked is one thing but not believing in Jesus is something very different. Being wicked is sometime because of how a person is naturally wired or maybe because of the upbringing. Being wicked is something of a helpless situation like that mentioned above in Romans 5:6.

Ephesians 6:12

For we are not fighting against human beings but against the wicked spiritual forces in the heavenly world, the rulers, authorities, and cosmic powers of this dark age.

However rejecting Jesus is something that God will not tolerate. Will you invite someone home and alow him to stay forever, if that someone rejects what your have done and may be even despises you.

Matthew 10:14-15 (Jesus words to His disciples who go about preaching His word)

14 And if some home or town will not welcome you or listen to you, then leave that place and shake the dust off your feet.15 I assure you that on the Judgement Day God will show more mercy to the people of Sodom and Gomorrah than to the people of that town!

Luke 10:16

16 Jesus said to his disciples, “Whoever listens to you listens to me; whoever rejects you rejects me; and whoever rejects me rejects the one who sent me.”

So coming back to how to deal with wicked people, the only solution to deal with such people is “a change of heart”. If you believe in Jesus then invite that person to Biblically sound Church so that he may powerfully witness God during worship & come to know of the abounding love and grace that is in store for him in the sacrifice of Jesus. However, if you don’t believe in Jesus then you may put your trust in that unknown God, the God of all gods and Lord of all lords, that Supreme Being. That unknown God has revealed Himself to me in the person that is Jesus Christ. But for now you may trust in that unknown all powerful God. Ask Him to reveal Himself so that you may know Him. Tell him of your frustration seeing wicked people prosper by unfair means. If you are frustrated it is a good sign because it is means you are putting up a fight against falling into their wicked ways. Be patient but seek this unknown almighty God diligently. You will know that you are in the right direction when a fire starts burning in you to know more. When you pray do not stick to a script, speak your heart out. Let it be you praying and not somebody else using your mouth. Your prayers will be answered.

What I have noticed about people with wicked ways is that in their idle time they are never happy. There is a guilt in them which they cannot hide when they are alone. Among other people they hide their guilt by acting even more wicked, like trying to cover a lie with lie. They would often have a look of disgust, disgust that comes from the way they go about life. For a non believer who complains about wickedness, there is only one way out, he needs to come to Jesus.

John 10:9 (Jesus words)

I am the gate. Whoever comes in by me will be saved; they will come in and go out and find pasture.

It is important to note that it is not a person by himself who decides to come to Jesus; it is the Father in heaven who alone draws people to His Son, so that they may be saved.

John 6:44 (Jesus words)

No one can come to me unless the Father who sent me draws him to me; and I will raise him to life on the last day.

There is one thing we must know and understand, the wicked were always destined for hell

Psalms 92:7

the wicked may grow like weeds, those who do wrong may prosper; yet they will be totally destroyed,

1Corinthians 6:9 (Apostle Paul (also know as Saul) to the Church of Corinth)

9 Surely you know that the wicked will not possess God’s Kingdom. Do not fool yourselves; people who are immoral or who worship idols or are adulterers or homosexual perverts 10 or who steal or are greedy or are drunkards or who slander others or are thieves — none of these will possess God’s Kingdom.

But whoever comes to Jesus, wicked or not, are saved (will live forever in heaven in union with Jesus), all their sins past, present & future are all forgiven. Jesus is God & the King of all life changing experiences and when people come to Jesus the Holy Spirit starts to work within them so that on that last of judgment they will stand faultless before God like the 3 examples above.

1 Corinthians 1:8

He will also keep you firm to the end, so that you will be faultless on the Day of our Lord Jesus Christ.

Colossians 1:22

But now, by means of the physical death of his Son, God has made you his friends, in order to bring you, holy, pure, and faultless, into his presence.

So if you want to be rescued from the wickedness of this world then seek and come to Jesus.

Acts 2:40 (Apostle Peter talking to general public on the day of the Holy Spirit Anointing)

40 Peter made his appeal to them and with many other words he urged them, saying, “Save yourselves from the punishment coming on this wicked people!” 41 Many of them believed his message and were baptized, and about 3,000 people were added to the group that day.

2Thessalonians 3:2 (Apostle Paul’s letter preaching the Gospel of Jesus to the Thessalonians)

Pray also that God will rescue us from wicked and evil people; for not everyone believes the message.

Spiritual Blindness

Hi people, how are you doing? Hope all is well. Sometime back I was listening to my Audio Bible and this piece of scripture struck me.

John 9:40-41

40 Some Pharisees who were there with him heard him say this and asked him, “Surely you don’t mean that we are blind, too?”

41 Jesus answered, “If you were blind, then you would not be guilty; but since you claim that you can see, this means that you are still guilty.”

Note: The blind in verse 41 refers to spiritual blindness of not being able the truth in Jesus. The Pharisees were members of an ancient Jewish sect that emphasized strict interpretation and observance of the Law of Moses.

Do you know what scripture came to my mind when I read this? Check this out.

Genesis 2:15-17

15 Then the Lord God placed the man in the Garden of Eden to cultivate it and guard it. 16 He said to him, “You may eat the fruit of any tree in the garden, 17 except the tree that gives knowledge of what is good and what is bad

You must not eat the fruit of that tree; if you do, you will die the same day.”

Genesis 3:6-7

6 The woman saw how beautiful the tree was and how good its fruit would be to eat, and she thought how wonderful it would be to become wise. So she took some of the fruit and ate it. Then she gave some to her husband, and he also ate it. 7 As soon as they had eaten it, they were given understanding and realized that they were naked; so they sewed fig leaves together and covered themselves.

It is important to note that the reason God told Adam that he would die if he ate the fruit of knowledge of what is bad and good is because he would then stand condemned under his own judgment because of disobedience. This is the reason why Adam and Eve hid themselves after eating the fruit.

There is something very similar in Genesis 3:7 & John 9:41. When Adam and Eve were blind to knowledge of right and wrong they were not guilty. The Pharisees being a people who emphasized the Law upon the common people, claimed to know right from wrong, they were a people who were still guilty because they claimed to be able to see.

Romans 5:13

There was sin in the world before the Law was given; but where there is no law, no account is kept of sins.

In a similar way the Pharisees were hiding from God by rejecting Jesus, seeking always to trap Him.

Matthew 16:1

Some Pharisees and Sadducees who came to Jesus wanted to trap him, so they asked him to perform a miracle for them, to show that God approved of him.

Mark 10:2

Some Pharisees came to him and tried to trap him. “Tell us,” they asked, “does our Law allow a man to divorce his wife?”

There is something I’ve learned in my life and that is don’t only learn a lesson when you come across something bitter, rather learn a lesson even when others taste the bitterness of life’s experiences. Learn also from other people’s experiences. The Pharisees were sprinting towards death by rejecting Jesus. It is important for you to know that it is by grace and not merit that people are saved (going to heaven).

Ephesians 2:4-5

4 But God’s mercy is so abundant, and his love for us is so great, 5 that while we were spiritually dead in our disobedience he brought us to life with Christ. It is by God’s grace that you have been saved.

If you are going to heaven it is only because of the trust you have in Jesus. The Law of Moses opened the eyes of what was sin, so came condemnation & death but the grace that God showed us in Jesus increased much more as sin increased.

Romans 7:7

Shall we say, then, that the Law itself is sinful? Of course not! But it was the Law that made me know what sin is. If the Law had not said, “Do not desire what belongs to someone else,” I would not have known such a desire.

1 Corinthians 15:56

Death gets its power to hurt from sin, and sin gets its power from the Law.

To conclude,

Romans 5:20-21

20 Law was introduced in order to increase wrongdoing; but where sin increased, God’s grace increased much more. 21 So then, just as sin ruled by means of death, so also God’s grace rules by means of righteousness, leading us to eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord.

Why Jesus?

Why accept Jesus as the personal King of your life? May be this question is in your mind or you may not yet be thinking along those lines but let me tell you why faith in Jesus is the only faith that exists from God. You may all agree with me when I say that God is greatest lover anytime & anywhere.

Allow me to introduce you to a situation, two men love their respective wives. One sacrifices his own needs and desires to tend to his wife. While the other exercises authority over his wife by telling her what to wear, what to cook, what to eat, where to go, what to do, who not to meet and stuff like that. Tell me now, which husband is the one who really loves his wife? Is it the one who puts rules, regulations & tries to command his wife? Or is it the one to sacrifices and gives up things to tend to his wife?

I am sure you will agree that the husband, who sacrifices, is the one who truly loves his wife. The husband, who dictates terms to his wife, may say that he is doing it out of concern but that kind of concern comes mostly from the desire to dominate rather than of love.

It is the same with the Jesus and His Church (believers), Jesus gave up His own life so that those who believe in Him can have eternal life in heaven in union with him. Jesus is Biblically known as the Groom and his Church (believers) is known as the bride (Eph 5:25). If you were to check up world religions, the rules and regulations are more of a power display to ascertain that their people are under authority, which like the dominating husband claims to be out of concern and love. World religions come to think that sacrificial love comes from every living thing but not God…He is too great to do that. They have never pondered that God can love beyond the love that can come from all creation put together. God’s sacrifice on the cross was this act of love, a love no god of every religion has shown.

This is something I received via sms: A simple example showing the contrast between God’s love and human love.

A bird flying in the SKY: God’s love

A bird in a CAGE: human’s love

Scripture says:

Psalms 146:7

he judges in favour of the oppressed and gives food to the hungry. The Lord sets prisoners free

Romans 3:24

But by the free gift of God’s grace all are put right with him through Christ Jesus, who sets them free.

Isaiah 47:4

The holy God of Israel sets us free — his name is the Lord Almighty.

John 3:16

For God loved the world so much that he gave his only Son, so that everyone who believes in him may not die but have eternal life.

John 8:26

If the Son sets you free, then you will be really free.

The Biblical Holy Trinity

I would like to share with you about, who is this One God of the Bible.

Gen 1:26
26 Then God said, “And now we will make human beings; they will be like us and resemble us. …

Take a good look at the above scripture, God says that humans would be like “US”. It is important to note that it is GOD ALONE who makes man but check out the “US”… indicating a plural. Let me add some insight to this. Consider human beings. A human being is made up of the following.

1) A mind that is capable of decision making, this is different from the brain because the brain dies with the body but it is not so with the mind.
2) A body, this is our physical existence.
3) A soul/spirit, I am sure I do not have to convince you of this.

All these 3 are very different but work together as one being. If there were a person named “Santosh”, if I were to demoralize him then I wouldn’t say that I am just oppressing his mind I would be oppressing Santosh himself. If I were to slap him then I wouldn’t say that I am just oppressing his body I would be oppressing Santosh himself. If I were to lead him away from Christ then I wouldn’t say that I am just oppressing his soul I would be oppressing Santosh himself. So you see Santosh exist as uniquely as one being in mind body and spirit.

This human existence is an image of God (Gen 1:26), God exist as the Father (the mind that wills), the Son (the body which acts) and the Spirit (which ministers – 2 Corinthians 13:13) & these THREE come together and function uniquely as ONE BEING just as our mind, body & spirit that come together as one being.

Let us go through scripture to clarify the above statement.
Consider Col 1:16, Father creating through the Son (Father being the will & working through the Body of Christ)

Col 1:16 (“him” refers to Jesus)
For through him God created everything in heaven and on earth, the seen and the unseen things, including spiritual powers, lords, rulers, and authorities. God created the whole universe through him and for him.

Consider Col 1:20, Father reconciled creation through the Son (The Father wills and the Son actions)

Col 1:20 (“Son” refers to Son of God-Jesus)
Through the Son, then, God decided to bring the whole universe back to himself. God made peace through his Son’s blood on the cross and so brought back to himself all things, both on earth and in heaven.

Consider Heb 1:2, Father speaks to us through the Son (the will of the Father carried out through the Son)

Hebrews 1:2
but in these last days he has spoken to us through his Son. He is the one through whom God created the universe, the one whom God has chosen to possess all things at the end.

Consider Col 3:17, when we give thanks to the Father we do it through the Body that is of Christ. For example if you had the opportunity to stand before a great mind (Albert Einstein, Isaac Newton etc), then how would you show the reverence that you have for his mind / ideas, most people would shake hands and say “it is an honour to meet you”. You see we reverie the mind through the body and so the Bible teaches us something along the same lines of The Father (mind / will) and The Son (Body of Christ)

Colossians 3:17

17 Everything you do or say, then, should be done in the name of the Lord Jesus, as you give thanks through him to God the Father.

Also consider John 10:30, John 14:9 & Colossians 1:15.

John 10:30 (Jesus’ Words)

The Father and I are one.”

John 14:9 (Jesus’ Words- Jesus is the visible image of the Father just as the body is the visible image of the mind)

…Whoever has seen me has seen the Father….

Colossians 1:15

Christ is the visible likeness of the invisible God. He is the firstborn Son, superior to all created things.
As for the Spirit, it is because of the Spirit that God is present everywhere & at all times.

Psalms 139:7-12 (David to God)

7 Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?

8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.

9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,

10 even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.

11 If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,”

12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.

If God was just one then he could only know what is happening everywhere through his created beings (angels and stuff) and that would mean that this god is dependent on his creation, implying he is not truly God.

Here is some scripture to support Father Son and Spirit work together as One being.

John 14:26 (Jesus’ words)
The Helper, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, will teach you everything and make you remember all that I have told you.

John 15:26 (Jesus’ words)
26 “The Helper will come the Spirit, who reveals the truth about God and who comes from the Father. I will send him to you from the Father, and he will speak about me.

Even consider

Genesis 11:5-9 (Tower of Babylon)
5 Then the Lord came down to see the city and the tower which those men had built, 6 and he said, “Now then, these are all one people and they speak one language; this is just the beginning of what they are going to do. Soon they will be able to do anything they want! 7 Let us go down and mix up their language so that they will not understand one another.” 8 So the Lord scattered them all over the earth, and they stopped building the city. 9 The city was called Babylon, because there the Lord mixed up the language of all the people, and from there he scattered them all over the earth.

Notice here to God refers to Himself as “us” in verse 7. He is not referring to any angels or any other creations because it does not mention that the “Lord spoke to whoever” or the “Lord commanded whoever”. The Lord alone came down; verse 5 does not state the company of any creation with my Lord. So God refers to Himself as plural & what is associated with it? Mixed up languages, who in the New Testament is associated with strange languages? It is the Holy Spirit.

Acts 19:6 (Also check Acts 2)
Paul placed his hands on them, and the Holy Spirit came upon them; they spoke in strange tongues and also proclaimed God’s message.

John 16:7 (Jesus’ words)
But I am telling you the truth: it is better for you that I go away, because if I do not go, the Helper will not come to you. But if I do go away, then I will send him to you.

From John 14:26 & John 15:26 mentioned above we can see that the Helper in John 16:7 is the Holy Spirit. However, Biblically “Helper” refers to God Himself because the Biblical God is a jealous God and He wants His people to trust & take help from only Him.

Let’s take a look at few scriptures that will show us how seriously God takes issues when we trust in something other than Him.

Deuteronomy 28:52 (Old Testament)

52 They will attack every town in the land that the Lord your God is giving you, and the high, fortified walls in which you trust will fall.

Isaiah 30:2-3 (Old Testament)

2 They go to Egypt for help without asking for my advice. They want Egypt to protect them, so they put their trust in Egypt’s king. 3 But the king will be powerless to help them, and Egypt’s protection will end in disaster.

Psalm 49:13-14 (Old Testament)

13 See what happens to those who trust in themselves,

the fate of those who are satisfied with their wealth —

14 they are doomed to die like sheep,

and Death will be their shepherd.

Proverbs 3:5

5 Trust in the Lord with all your heart. Never rely on what you think you know.

Note: God however does use His creation according to His purpose. You may say a friend helped you but in truth it was God who helped you because it was God who made your friend capable to help you (Isaiah 10:5-15).

Also consider, Isaiah 40:31

But those who trust in the Lord for help will find their strength renewed. They will rise on wings like eagles; they will run and not get weary; they will walk and not grow weak.
Coming back, here is some scripture showing God alone to be the Biblical “Helper”.

Psalm 54:4
But God is my helper. The Lord is my defender.

Heb 13:6
Let us be bold, then, and say: “The Lord is my helper, I will not be afraid. What can anyone do to me?”

Well since I have shown you scripture showing God as a Helper, you may take it as the Father alone to be the Helper but I have also shown that the Spirit is also a Helper. Even Jesus referred to Himself as a Helper

John 14:16 (Jesus’ says)
I will ask the Father, and he will give you another Helper, who will stay with you for ever.

Another helper mentioned above (John 14:6), implying that Jesus Himself is a Helper. Please note that no prophet, angel or any other creation has ever Biblically referred to himself as a helper. Ask your self, does God need any help to function? No, He is Self Sufficient, Almighty & Sovereign. So who can Biblically refer to Himself as a Helper? The answer is God Himself. The God of Abraham, Isaac & Jacob, who exist as uniquely as One in the Father Son & Holy Spirit.

Isaiah 64:4 (Prophet Isaiah – Old Testament)

No one has ever seen or heard of a God like you, who does such deeds for those who put their hope in him.

You may also consider 1 John 5:7 & Matthew 28:19 for more clarification on the topic of God existing as One in the Father Son and Holy Spirit.

1 John 5:7-8 (Apostle John writes to early Christ to encourage fellowship [brotherhood])

7 For there are three that bear witness in heaven: the Father, the Word, and the Holy Spirit; and these three are one. 8 And there are three that bear witness on earth: the Spirit, the water, and the blood; and these three agree as one.


  1. It is the Lord alone who is Biblically referred to as the witness in heaven.

Judges 11:10

They replied, “We agree. The Lord is our witness.”

Jeremiah 23:23-25 (how God bears witness)

23 “I am a God who is everywhere and not in one place only. 24 No one can hide where I cannot see him. Do you not know that I am everywhere in heaven and on earth? 25 I know what those prophets have said who speak lies in my name and claim that I have given them my messages in their dreams.

  1. For information regarding Jesus being refereed to as the Word, please read the article: “Word of God” is Jesus Himself.
  1. The Water and Blood in 1John5:8 refers to Jesus again (1John5:6), because it was Jesus and His Spirit who came to earth to carry out the Father’s Salvation plan for man.


Jesus Christ is the one who came with the water of his baptism and the blood of his death. He came not only with the water, but with both the water and the blood. And the Spirit himself testifies that this is true, because the Spirit is truth.

Matthew 28:19 (Jesus Words as to His disciples after His resurrection)

19 Go, then, to all peoples everywhere and make them my disciples: baptize them in the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit,

Note: Baptism is Biblical declaration of faith by a person in His God, Who exists as uniquely One in the Father Son and Holy Spirit. God is clearly shown here as the Father Son and Holy Spirit

Does God exist?

I would like to start with a small discussion, may the Holy Spirit guide me in this. Tell me what do you think about God? Does He exist? Let us start with considering a few things.

  1. Life
  2. Situation (so called coincidences)
  3. Existence of the paranormal stuff.
  4. Interdependence
  5. Unexpected outcomes
  6. Science

Lets start with, 1: Life.

1. Life

Allow me to ask you something, looking at all the life that exist around you, can you tell me of anything that has come into LIVING existence from something that is not living? I know that science talks of the big bang and stuff, like life started from simple unicellular organism and developed into complex multi-cellular organisms. But tell me, how would you explain life coming into existence just like that? Ok if you say the conditions were favorable, which caused life to blossom, even then the “seed / root cause” of life had to exist in order for it to germinate. If there were no seed then there would be no life. The seed of life can only come from something that is alive, which existed before that seed did. Even today unicellular organism (incase you bring this up) exist, they have not developed. You may take examples of amoebae and paramecium (singled celled organisms), according to science they existed before today’s human beings. Why did evolution leave these organisms out? Why are they the same till now? If the conditions were not favorable they would not have survived till today & even today (18/2/2010) they continue to multiply.

So the question we need to ask ourselves is something similar to, which came first the chicken or the egg? Ask you self how did life begin? If you stay in an apartment then “look at your building & ask yourself”, is there any such thing as a builder? May be you know your builder or may be you don’t. What if you never saw your builder at work on your building? Would there then be any logical explanation, to consider the existence of your building without considering the existence of a builder? You may also apply the same question by looking at your life and the life around you.

If you were to come back to favorable and unfavorable conditions then I would like to tell you that favorable conditions are different for different living organism. An example of this would be, the basic favorable living condition for a fish would be water, without water it would suffocate and die even if there is plenty of air in the new environment because fish can only breathe in water. So there is no such thing as a favorable condition for life to exist, may be there would be a particular living organisms that cannot survive in a particular environment but that would not necessarily mean that that environment is devoid of life. So now, ask yourself since there are no such things as favorable conditions for life to exist, why is it that other planets and not full of life like Earth?

Also consider this, do you remember being born, I don’t but even though you don’t remember being born you know were born because that is the reason you are here today. It is the same about being created, if your mind was not mature enough to recollect your own birth how will you then recollect the moments of your creation.

Ask yourself; what / who is responsible for life? Is there a Supreme Hand behind all that is living?

2. Situations (so called coincidences)

I am sure all of us have come across situations, which we term as coincidences. You may meet an old friend, whom you were just thinking of the previous day. Or you may be talking about someone and that same person walks in. You may have desired something strongly and it all worked out, for whatever reason. Calling an incident a coincidence is weak definition for something that has been planned. If you believe in the term coincidence, then you and I too, exist by mere coincidence, what if our parents never met? Then would have been no marriage or you or me, think about it, is it coincidence or a small part of a big plan?

Ask yourself; Who is in charge of all this planning?

3. Existence of the paranormal stuff.

This is something that you would not be able to explain, if you do not agree with the existence of spiritual forces. I am sure many of you, may have had spine-chilling encounters with spiritual forces, which you may not be able to explain till today. May be the experience is engrained in you. If you agree with the existence of these spiritual forces then you would also need to agree that they are submissive to a certain authority. All created beings that exist, have to answer to someone higher. If you are with me till here then you will also agree that as you move up hierarchy, you will reach the Pinnacle / Supreme Authority. Everything that exist living or non living is dependent on something (man, weather, environment, soil, resources etc), there is nothing that exist in absolute independence. There is something (you may call it a spiritually Supreme force) that allows all creation (living or non-living) to co-exist. This Spiritually Supreme force is alive and provides for all His creation by bringing them together & making them work in tandem.  The paranormal entities that you may have encountered, have not come into being by themselves, they co-exist with other creation, they do not exist independently & they are totally dependent on that Supreme Authority.

Ask yourself; who is this Supreme Authority?

4. Interdependence

Have you ever wondered as to why all that we know that exist is always dependent on something, be it living or non living. Everything is interdependent, dependant either on the weather or the environment or on the availability of food & water. If you believe in the survival of fittest then you will also believe that creation gets better with time. Now, if you hold on to this idea, then can you tell me as to why, even after millions of years of so called improvement, has creation not been able to move out from interdependency to total self-sufficiency? If you say that these millions of years were not enough, then are you implying that probably millions of years from now we will see self sufficiency in all creation? but if that were to happen then every cell in a living organisms would exist independently and there would be no use of cells coming together to form a body and in the same way, even atoms of non-living things would exist independently and there would be no need to for them to stay together, form molecules and so there would be no structures (mountains, hills, planets, star etc). If this self-dependence were to ever come to pass then that would be the end of the universe, as we know it. There would be no oceans or seas, no mountains or plains, no planets or stars. The term co-existence would be non-existent. Life as we know it would come to an end. The theory of evolution stands only to be questioned, that if according to evolution life goes from good to better then why did these small particles (cells and atoms) come together to form a body when they could remained isolated and evolved to be self sufficient over many years.

If you were to ask me to explain the interdependency in all creation, then I would explain it all by comparing it to a kingdom. In a kingdom everything has a purpose and each part is useful and serves the full kingdom body either directly or indirectly. Let me give you an example, in a kingdom, a farmer provides food for the people, the surplus food would go into storage and could even be exported. A soldier would fight to advance the kingdom or to defend it & so provide protection to its people. A cleaner would make sure living conditions are hygienic to reduce disease and so improve overall living conditions. Even a house wife serves in the kingdom by keeping her husband relatively free of house work, so that he can work to further the interest of the kingdom & she can also tutor her children. Non-living things too have their purpose in the kingdom be it spears, shields & swords used by soldiers or guitars, organs, drums used by musicians for entertainment or ploughs used by farmers. Animals such as cattle, sheep, poultry, dogs etc also play their role in the kingdom. The land too plays its role by supporting vegetation, cattle etc.

In the same way creation functions, winds blow and carry water as rain to crops; the crops grow and feed the people.  Beautiful mountains, sunsets, valleys oceans, beaches etc. makes you marvel at His creation. The sun burns millions of miles away and plants use that light to make food for themselves by photosynthesis, herbivores eats those plants, carnivores eats those herbivores & scavengers (maggots, vultures, hyenas) eats them all when they die. This interdependency seems too organized to happen just like that. If you were to answer “Nature” makes things work in tandem then you are probably implying that there is a unseen force responsible that makes things co-exist and interdependent. Do you think this force will exist on earth alone? I don’t think so, because all creation is interdependent no mater where it is, so this force should be in control of the whole known and unknown universe. That would make this force supreme since it is in control of all things and since it makes all creation harmonize, then that would mean that this force is sovereign and its kingdom would be all of creation. Also since this force appears to be capable of decision making (beyond human understanding), implying that this force/King must be alive.

Ask yourself; who is this Sovereign (in full control) and alive force/King?

Would you like to know what it is that holds most cells and organs together? The scientific term is Laminin. Laminin are a protein network foundation for most cells and organs. They are an important and biologically active part, influencing cell differentiation, migration, adhesion as well as survival.

Would you like to know what the Laminin looks like in structure? Google Laminin images.

Do you see a cross like structure?

The three shorter arms are particularly good at binding to other laminin molecules, which allows them to form sheets. The long arm is capable of binding to cells, which helps anchor organized tissue cells to the membrane.

Does this give you any idea of who really is this “Supreme and alive” force/King?

Note: As an unbeliever & a possible Biology student, you may say that under the microscope the only similarity Laminin share with the molecular diagram is that they both have four arms branching from a central point; the arms vary in length from one specimen to the next and are not rigid as the diagrams may depict.

However to counter such a statement I would like to add that even the cross that people know today is not necessarily the cross Jesus died on, the shape of the cross is not spelled out in the Bible, infact sometimes in the Bible the cross was refereed to as a tree (Gal 3:13-14), We know the structure of the cross today just as we know the molecular structure of Laminin. Similarly the real cross on which Jesus died may have been just as vivid as the real Laminin you may have seen under the microscope.

5. Unexpected outcomes

I am sure you will know by now how unexpected certain things can be. Allow me to put a question to you. Consider the tsunami that happened a few years ago, where thousands of people lost their lives. Science can explain “why it happened?” but can science explain “How it happened?” Well my question of “Why” & “How” are very similar but allow me to take you deeper into the question. Consider two people say Mangesh & Raj, these two were really close friends but suddenly there is a rift for whatever reason. Now the two them would be very capable to explain the reason for the rift (Why) but would the two of them be able to say “how” come these two very close friends, who got along so well for whatever length of time, suddenly drew apart? This is the “Why” & “How” that I am referring to. Sometimes some really bad stuff happens to us & a person who may not be very sure about God may say “Why me?”, he would rarely say “How come it’s me?” Because the word “How” seeks to know & the word “Why” is more of a defensive question, rather than seeking to know. I shall further support my statement, if you were to say “why am I reading this book?” it would be more like questioning why you are not rejecting this book, however if you were to say “how is it that I am reading this book?”, it would be like you wanting to know what is making you read this book. So you see “why” is more of a question that you ask in your own defense while “how” is you seeking to know how this all fits in the big plan.

I am sure you may have some really big or small questions about your life that you are finding hard to answer. Have you considered asking yourself, how come this (whatever it is) happened to you? Have you ever felt within you a really strong urge to cry out for help? Have you considered crying in your heart to the One who is Supreme, whoever you think He is?

Ask yourself; who is this Person you cry out to when you are in despair?

6. Science

Science is something that shows the splendor in all of God’s creation. So that we may stand in awe of God & give Him glory. Let me give you an example; consider our computers I am sure that most of you would have your own desktop or laptop. Now you may have had a computer for so long that you may have lost your enthusiasm for your computer. However if anyone were to take you through the science behind your computer, like showing how millions of semiconductors fit into your processor, which is just the size of a potato chip or showing how all the information in the books that students carry in those bulky bags can be accommodated in a memory chip the size of your thumbnail or showing you the science behind wireless data transfer via Bluetooth. If I were to help you understand this, you would be intrigued but you would not give glory to man. I have never come across man glorifying man because of technology that man made. Man may say that he is not satisfied because there is much more to learn and make but deep within man knows that what ever he has learnt has come from God. Man has never been self sufficient that is why man is never satisfied when he relies on himself. Coming back, just as the knowledge of how your computer is made and how it works, helps you appreciate technology. In the same way the Science of (we, this world with every thing in it & the universe) helps us see the splendor of God (with the right state of mind) and so give Him glory.

Science is good subject to talk about; it helps you understand the nature of things around & their function. However may I add a word of caution; if you use science to disapprove the existence of God then that would be like using God inspired knowledge against God Himself. God sustains all things. There are many things that human science cannot explain because it works on the basis of human knowledge and human logic. Man has tried several things in terms of science for perfect living, but has man achieved that? Man till now, has been unable to use his human logic and knowledge to make sense of his own life. Yeah a man may say that he has his whole life worked out but time works in God’s favour and sometimes makes man eat his own words in disgrace. This same man who has been unable to make sense of his own life (growing up, studying, making friends, getting a job, finding a partner, getting married, buying a house, having children, raising children and handling a job at the same time, staying in touch with friends, finding security in old age….and so on), attempts to make sense of God. What he knows cannot even help him, but he considers himself thorough, to develop his own doctrine about what he thinks about God.

May I use science to show you how insignificant we (man) are in all creation.

If were to compare my planet Earth to the Sun, it would be like comparing my city Mumbai to the state Maharashtra that it is in. It would be like the size of a really small coin & that is also the same way the Earth is, in comparison to the Sun. Now if I were to compare the size of the Sun to our Solar System, the Sun would be a very small fraction of the entire Solar System. The Sun would probably be like another small coin in our Solar System. Now let us go back through some school science. I would like to tell you that the Solar System is one where we have our Sun in the center with the planets and their moons revolving around the Sun. I think its time for me to tell you of the measurement that is used for telling distance between stars. The measurement is called light-years. The speed of light is 3X10^8 meters per second, which is some amazing speed. Think of this, light takes just 8 minutes to go from the Sun to the Earth, which is roughly 93 million miles. So just imagine the distance light would cover in one whole year & that is called 1 light-year. Just like our Solar System, there are many other Solar Systems that together form one Galaxy. The Galaxy that holds our Solar System is called the Milky Way. Do you know the diameter of our Galaxy (Milky Way)? It is 100,000 light-years. Now just like our galaxy there are millions and millions of other galaxies holding their own solar system. Can you imagine how big that is? I can’t but this is just the known universe. The telescopes that we have today can only look this far. As Physics says that the universe is ever increasing, I cannot comprehend, when it will be, that we will be able to see, the entire universe, which also is small fraction of God’s creation. How visible do you think we are in all of this creation? The Only Being that can see us in all this (our known) vastness is God.

Atheists are not people who we need to fight, they are people we need to educate with reason & love. May be they have a fear in them and prohibits them from thinking about eternal security. This is something that discourages them from asking themselves questions that will get them to start thinking, whether God exist. For those who don’t believe in God. This may happen when people go through hard times in life but I will tell you this they will come to the conclusion that God does not exist when they are out of the bad situation. They somehow fail to see who was instrumental in pulling them out. I say instrumental because God often uses the environment around His people to help them out. As my Pastor rightfully puts it there is never an atheist on a sinking ship except may be in the movies. Even an atheist will say “yes” to God in a dire situation but when he is out of that situation he may forget God, may be that would be because he still wants to stick to his own notions or he will make himself believe that it was just a coincidence or he got lucky or he had some good people to rely on. He thinks everything worked in his favour without God, something like a diesel engine running without diesel. Without God nothing happens & nothing exists.

I do not feel like I can convince a head strong Atheist that God exists in this chapter alone. Force of any kind is certainly not a way God uses to draw people to Himself. God loves using his resources (people, situations & time) to bring people to know Him & so I would like to share with you, 3 testimonies of Atheist, who came to believe and trust in Jesus.

1st Testimony: Sanjay Merchant

At one time in my life I considered myself an atheist. At least I thought that I was an atheist. However, I often struggled with the hypocrisy that I saw in my life due to the difficulties with actually living out atheism. From a detached “intellectual” point of view it’s easy to wave your hand and proclaim, “there is no God because there is no proof of his existence.” Yet most atheists are really shaking an angry fist in spite of the evidence which they know to exist.

You see, it’s easy to claim atheism, but it’s difficult to live atheism. I’ll explain this later on. But first, I’ll explain some things for those who don’t know what atheism is about. The word “atheist” literally means, “without God”. In other words, the nature of man, his moral standards (or lack thereof) and purpose can be explained outside of the recognition of a creator. Most atheists believe that everything we see in existence is the result of natural, physical processes, which can be observed today.

For example, I believed in the “Big Bang” theory and Darwinian evolution. I believed in the “Big Bang” because I thought that it was a scientific explanation as to our existence, while religion was just full of myth. Through later research I found that the “Big Bang” is not science at all since it is not based on direct observation or testable methods. In contradiction, it is adhered to “religiously” by those who wish to purposely reject the idea of accountability and a moral standard. Some say, “Well God could have initiated the Big Bang.” But by the time you get to Ylem (the supposed source of the bang) you’ve effectively eliminated any worshipable god from the picture (a very convenient trick for those who don’t want God but can’t disprove him; just make him really small). In turn, I had simply assumed this theory to be fact as my sixth grade teacher had told me it was so. We studied it along with the fact that the earth revolves around the sun, and that’s certainly provable and accepted.

Similarly, I believed that my origins were found in evolution. This was superficially pleasing to me as it was an adequate method to explain away actions that I knew were immoral. Deep inside I was convinced that many of my actions were wrong, but evolution helped me to conveniently rationalize those fears. I was able to blame my actions on my “natural instincts”. I would lie to my parents to better my own existence, I would hurt others to ease my own life and assert my dominance over rivals (survival of the fittest), and I would sleep with my girlfriend due to my animal instinct to procreate (though had we succeeded we would have had an abortion – logical?).

I had trouble, however, trying to explain the guilt and sickness I had felt when I knew that I had done what was wrong.

Another real problem arose for me when it came to discussing religion. I could calmly discuss the teachings of Mohammed or Buddha, but when it came to Jesus I became very angry. I thought that an atheist should act rationally and never get angry. After all, it was evolutionarily useless to become so mad, unless it preserved my life.

I argued with and harassed Christians without cause. I hated their joy and love for one another. I felt that they simply needed a crutch; they could have their crutch… I was man enough to face my death. But, I found that I was afraid of life. I hated almost everyone, especially myself… but of course, this was “natural”.

One evening I went to a Christian Bible study to argue and set people straight, as I thought. I was convinced that I understood life even though I had never heard the Christian message. I simply believed the hypocrisy I had seen in the headlines, the strict regulations imposed by the Vatican and the hate spread by racists who said that they were Christians (its surprising to note the roots of racism lie in atheism, and are nowhere found in the Bible).

I met people who were nothing like I had imagined. I hung on every word of the speaker. I was in awe of his wisdom, while still attempting to disagree. At the end of the evening he asked if he could pray for me. I allowed him as I did not believe in prayer, but didn’t want to be rude. As he finished I opened my eyes in amazement. I couldn’t believe what I was seeing. It was as if I was a newborn… all my vain arguments and anger passed away. I no longer hated these people. I almost ran out in fear. That night I prayed for the first time. I asked Jesus to help me if he was able.

The next day I called my former best friend (I say former because he had become a Christian months before and after many arguments I decided to have no contact with him). He brought two other men that had been close friends of mine in the past also. They answered all my lingering questions and I understood about God for the first time. Afterwards, they prayed for me. I felt as if I had come into the presence of the Jesus that I had hated so much. I raised my hands to fight, but I felt that his arms were wide open… ready to forgive and help me. I broke down in tears and gave my life over to Jesus. I didn’t join a religion or a church… I simply can to realize what happens when an atheist meets Jesus.


2nd Tetimony: Richard Deem

This is the testimony of Richard Deem, a sinner saved by the grace of God. Even though I was unworthy, God loved me and called me to be His child. This is my story of discovery.

I was raised in a moral, but non-Christian home, by loving, but agnostic parents. From my earliest memories, I have had a profound interest in science and nature. I pursued studies in the sciences in my classes and on my own, primarily in the old “playhouse” room adjacent to the garage in the backyard of my parents’ home. During these early years I came across several religious people, all of whom seemed to believe theirs was the only true religion. The need for God seemed remote, since I was very capable and self-sufficient.

I pursued a bachelor of science degree in biology at the University of Southern California, which included several classes which discussed the theory of evolution. Studies on the possible chemical evolution of life were unconvincing and led me to the conclusion there must have been a Creator God who at least created the earliest life forms (and the universe itself). I became a deist, but was skeptical of being able to sort out which of the religions of the world represented the true God.

After graduating, I began a master of science program in microbiology at California State University Los Angeles and worked part time counting inventory at night for an inventory service. One of these night jobs involved doing an inventory at a Christian bookstore. The store’s owner was very friendly and helpful, but halfway through the job he announced to our crew that he was going home. He told us to finish counting and leave the totals on his desk, lock the door, and drop the keys in the mail slot. We were all amazed that he would trust total strangers with his store. There was obviously something very different about this Christian man.

I graduated with a master degree and began my career doing research in the field of immunology. Things went very well and within six years I had published eight articles (five of which I was primary author) in prestigious scientific journals. I was running my own life and ignoring God until I got very sick. The tests revealed I had Crohn’s disease, a serious, incurable inflammatory disease of the intestines. I found myself unable to do things using my own abilities and strength. After two months of being bedridden in severe pain, I cried out to God and promised to try to follow Him and do what He wanted me to do (although I had no idea what that was at the time). Within three months all symptoms of Crohn’s disease had disappeared.

Three years later I was “set up” for a blind date with a Christian woman. We got along fine, except when it came to the issue of God. I was given many things to read, including the gospel of Luke (which she thought would be of interest, since Luke was a physician). None of this reading was convincing, so I decided to read the entire New Testament, beginning with the gospel of Matthew. Things seemed rather bland until I got to the Sermon on the Mount (chapter 5). What Jesus had to say was unlike any of the messages of the world, but was what I would expect to be God’s message. I was suddenly aware that I was guilty in the eyes of God, even though I had led a “good, moral life.” The Holy Spirit convicted me that Jesus was the Son of God and that He was only way to have peace and communion with a Holy God.

Since that time, I have grown in faith as I have followed the course laid out by the Holy Spirit. The joy and peace found by following Jesus is unlike anything the world has to offer. It is something that I could not have understood as a non-believer. If you are a non-believer, I’m sure you have doubts about the peace Jesus promises. However, through simple faith and a prayer to God, you can experience this peace yourself. You have nothing to lose and eternity to gain. If you still have some doubts or questions about the Bible, trust that the Lord will answer those questions. The Lord has been faithful in answering my doubts regarding the harmony between science and the Bible through the ministry of Reasons to Believe. One of my favorite verses is from Isaiah:

“Come now, and let us reason together,” Says the Lord, “Though your sins are as scarlet, they will be as white as snow; though they are red like crimson, they will be like wool.” (Isaiah 1:18)


3rd Testimony: Shawn

This testimony is about how my life changed “instantly” one night in a hotel room as I hovered the edge of death while my whole life flashed in front of me.

These wonderful events happened during a time in my life when God was non-existent to me. My atheistic views fed a notion that “He” was nothing more than a theory in the imagination of weak-minded people, people who are starving for meaning and purpose in this dull and bleak world. But not I. I was not one of them, I was stronger than that and had all the answers and did not need a God.

This belief system turned out to be only half-truth, because little did I know, a series of events would happen, ultimately changing my view forever and bringing me face to face with reality.

Prior to these events, life at best held little meaning to me. So much had already happened to me as a child, things I had no control over. Things like, being given-up for adoption into a family who treated me like an outsider. Being forced to deal with mental, physical and sexual abuse and even racism by the ones who claimed to love me. It was a very difficult childhood in many ways and my sensitive nature did not make it any easier either. None of it made any sense to me so I gave up on the idea of a purpose filled life.

As a result, I concluded life to be too short to be concerned about such nonsense, nonsense about a living God I mean. Especially a God who would allow an innocent child like my self to go through the things I did and not do anything about it. Instead, I sought freedom from it all with a no-matter-the-cost frame of mind, and at the age of seventeen my search began that lasted nearly eighteen years. What I didn’t know though, was that those eighteen years would be spent digging a hole so deep that eventually I would reach a point where I would have only one direction to look – that was up.

In the latter part of my wandering aimlessly around the states, my past began catching up with me in a major way. I soon found myself unable to bear the painful memories of my childhood and looked to drugs and alcohol as a means of escaping. For many years, substance abuse became my God.

As time went on, I found myself in a serious state of depression and loneliness and eventually slithered into a recluse condition. I was a mess; haunted by an unfortunate past and left to deal with it all on my own and not understanding the reason why. The more my memories manifested themselves the more inflamed my reckless lifestyle became. I reached a point where drugs, alcohol and sexual stimulation controlled my life, every aspect of it, and everything I did evolved around them. From the moment I woke up, until I passed out, I was under the control of this artificial release; even my dreams were intoxicated.

Throughout my travels, I of course met many people but it was impossible to maintain a lasting relationship, not only due to the fact I moved around continuously but mainly because of my instability and loss of interactive social skills. I did not realize it at the time but I was swimming in a sea of depression. It was more than just a blip of abnormality; it was a chronic infection and it overshadowed me day and night. It was fueled by feelings of abandonment, loneliness, and worthlessness and any problems I encountered quickly escalated to nuclear size proportion. I was at the point where I did not want to be around anyone. I was a walking barrage of misery, inapproachable and unpredictable, and ready to implode at any given moment.

As years past, I increasingly became more dependent upon those things that were tearing my life apart; they became the norm and I found myself drifting coast to coast in search of them. And I eventually ended up in South Beach Miami, Florida, where I met a beautiful girl named Emma, from New Zealand.

Emma was able to touch me in a way that no one else had ever done so before and I quickly fell in love with her. She was away from home and her studies, traveling around the world and was only to be here in the states for a short period. Although I knew her stay was to be limited, I allowed myself to fall head over heels just the same. She was unfamiliar to me, but treated me so well, and seemed to overlook all of my flaws. I was shown the kind of attention by her that I had always longed for, and for a brief moment, while in her presence, I felt normal. When we were together, it seemed as if the darkness had lifted away from my life, and I could breathe again. However, that readiness did not last.

When it came time for her to move on, I couldn’t take anymore. My heart and mind were too weak to handle another person walking out of my life and the pain that was to follow would have been too much to bear. I had already convinced her to stay longer than she had planned, on a couple of occasions, but the time came when she had to go; there was no other choice. When that time reached its point, I lost what little control I had left, and on the night before, I overdosed on extra strength pain pills.

I was rushed to the hospital and spent three days in intensive care and another three days in the psych ward but eventually signed myself out against the hospital’s recommendations. When they questioned why I did it, I told them I had made a big mistake, that I did not want to die and that it would never happen again. I convinced them, and even myself, that I could handle the situation and did not need help from anyone; I was in total denial.

That episode sparked an accelerated downturn and I soon found myself speeding on that road of self-destruction, once again. As time grew, so did my depression, loneliness and substance abuse until it eventually ended up in Phoenix Arizona, the one last stop before my life would be changed forever.

I had been living in a hotel room for about a year and soon found myself not wanting to live again but this time, it was worse than before. The feelings of despair were stronger and I more weakened, and I spent countless days alone, drinking, drugging and contemplating the best way to take my life, but this time I would do it right.

Unlike before, I was not afraid of death; in fact, it would have been the ultimate relief for me, so I thought. I was so tired and just could not imagine anything else better but to “close my eyes and go to sleep.” I had completely stopped looking for reasons to live and searched for every reason to die.

The more I thought of my life the wearier it made me. My day-to-day routine became too heavy of a struggle. I felt bogged down in misery and did not have the energy left to carry on. I was a walking dead man on a path of hopelessness; I felt I was beyond help and there was no way out in sight. I had reached a dead end of it all . . . who knew that this would ever happen to me? That the hole I had dug for myself all the years past would finally hit its rock bottom. And on that night, while sitting in that lonely hotel room, the reality of it all came crashing down on top of me.

June 14th, 2002 – Phoenix, Arizona (approximately 10:00pm)

I was in the hotel room, alone as usual, drinking, smoking marijuana and crack cocaine; I had started around 4pm or so. After turning on the television, I noticed it left on a religious channel. This was odd to me because I never watched that kind of stuff, religion was nonexistent, to the extent that I did not believe I mean. I felt it was just another form of brainwashing, a way of controlling lives and their hard-earned money, and I wanted no part in it.

I did not put too much emphasis on why the T.V. was on that station. I just assumed the housekeeper had been watching while cleaning my room. Besides, I was not interested in watching TV anyway; it was just another form of distraction while getting high.

I went back to what I was doing and after awhile the television caught my attention once more. This time a female preacher was ministering. She talked about the world and the things that were happening at that time and went on to mention something about 9/11 and then related all of what was happening to end time prophecies. I guess this is why my attention was drawn initially; 9/11 was a traumatic time for the world.

She then went on to speak about things like heaven, hell and sin, but the more I listened to her the angrier it made me. It was sounding like nonsense to me, and I eventually got up and turned the set off before sitting back down to my cocktail of drugs.

Moments later, I caught myself daydreaming about what she had been talking about and briefly considered the possibility of some truth behind it. However, it did not take me long before I shook off the idea and laughed at the same time for even thinking of such foolishness.

Some time had passed before I found myself sitting on the edge of the bed thinking about my own life and the way it had ended up. The more I thought about it the more saddened I became. It all seemed so unfairly divergent to anyone else’s life I had ever known before and I asked myself. “Why is it that my life is the way it is and what did I do wrong that I am not able to change it?” No matter how hard I had ever tried, I just could not make any changes. (It took me some years to realize why this is sometimes the case . . . this is actually a blessing in disguise.)

As I thought more, I started feeling sorry for the way things had turned out. I began admitting to myself that I was an outcast and a failure. I presumed this to be the reason why my biological parents gave me up for adoption in the first place; I was some sort of bad apple, I felt.

I thought of how hard it was growing up as an adoptee and not feeling loved by the people who took me in, or like part of their family. I went on to think about all the trouble I was into and that no one cared enough to investigate the reasons why, but that I knew there were reasons behind it. I thought more of the loneliness that I had no choice but to live with, the sadness I suffered my whole life, and of all that weight I carried on my shoulders and how tired I was of carrying it.

I thought of my ethnicity and the labels the world gave people like me because of my mixed race, and not fitting in with my peers. I hated the names they called me, names like “mixed breed, mutt, zebra, half baked, yellow,” etc. I just did not feel normal in any way. I felt worse off than a dog and that I was no better than the slop swine feed on or the waste they tread underfoot.

I thought of how hard it was growing up in a town that hated interracial relationships and they hated me because I was a product of one. I felt it all to be unfair that I had no control over the way I was born or the life that I had been given. I would often ask the same question . . . “Why, why did I have to be so different?” I was, though, never given an answer.

No one loved me . . . I was sure of this. No one cared how I lived or what I was going through, and I knew this. Why? Because I felt it. How could it be though? How could the world be so insensitive? How could they not care when I was hurting so much? Couldn’t they see it? It was beyond me. However, the truth is that I could not see past my own pain. It made me want to crawl under a rock and hide from it all. And in addition to all that, unbeknownst to everything else I was going through, I realized my addictions.

I had become addicted to crack cocaine, alcohol, sexual stimulation and even depression. These were major strongholds on my life and I hated myself for it. It was then when I realized I had truly hit rock bottom, but somehow, I felt like that bottom was where I belonged.

I sat there realizing I had reached my destiny and it would never change. Why? Because it wasn’t meant to. I imagined myself being born as an example of someone else’s mistakes and left to suffer for them the rest of my pathetic life. There was no way out of it. I was convinced of this. No matter what anyone said, or did, it would never change, not one single thing would ever change because this is where I was meant to be.

I hid my face into my hands and felt the unfairness of it all. I did not have a chance from the moment I was born, I thought. I still couldn’t understand the reason why, either. I was innocent and didn’t ask for any of it. Why me? What had I done? I kept asking myself these same questions repeatedly that night.

I thought of the times I tried to make a change but didn’t make progress. It felt like something was holding me back; I just could not break free. Every time I put one foot forward, the force of that something pushed me three steps back. I tried – I tried many times to move forward but no matter how hard I tried, I found myself beating against an unrelenting wind.

I filled with anxiety and finally stood up and began pacing back and forth around the room while keeping in deep thought. After some time, my attention fell upon the Holy Bible that had been sitting on a nightstand next to the bed. It had been collecting dust there for as long as I had been living in that room and until that moment, I had not considered reading it.

(Here in the States, a group called the Gideons left bibles in motel rooms across the country . . . it is an American Tradition)

Strangely enough, I remember at least on one occasion I threw it into the trash only to come back later in the evening to find the housekeeper had taken it out and placed it back on the stand. I also remember wanting to get rid of it on several occasions but for some reason, I either forgot or just became preoccupied. The only time I ever gave any real thought to it was when I ran out of rolling papers.

Anyway, as I sat on the edge of the bed staring at the Bible, the desire to pick it up became even stronger. It was an unusual feeling to say the least, as I said before, I never gave it consideration. Nevertheless, I finally gave into the urge and picked it up.

As I took it in my hands and randomly opened it, it turned to the book of 1st Thessalonians . . . but reading it was a task. I realized I was too intoxicated to understand anything written down. Nonetheless, I stumbled through a couple of paragraphs trying to comprehend. “This is a waste of time,” I said. I could not remember one single verse from the other. “I am too high,” I said. However, the urge kept me trying.

Suddenly, one part of a page jumped out at me with clarity. It talked about all kinds of sin and the consequences of them. Everything about my immoral life style, it seemed to be mentioning. It went on to explain how detrimental this lifestyle is, and one in particular screamed at me – the sin of sexual immorality. It all pierced my heart definably.

As I was reading all of this, it was becoming uncomfortably clear to me that the way I was living my life was wrong. I understood it exactly, and it was a deep understanding as well. This understanding went deeper than anything I had ever understood before. It was as though the effects of the drugs had stripped away and my mind had opened to its core. Indeed, it had.

I can’t put it into better words, to explain to you exactly how I felt at that moment, but believe me when I say it; it was a powerful perception that could have only come from God.

As I read on, it talked about many different types of sin and I realized that every one of them mentioned played a major role in my life, a controlling role. I felt as if God was talking directly to me in admonishment for the way I was living.

When I realized this, I increased with sorrow and shame. It was the most uncomfortable feeling I had ever experienced in my whole life and it was at that point when I realized just how unclean I was in the eyes of God. And immediately upon acknowledgment of this, I opened up, pleading from the bottom of my heart, “GOD IF YOU ARE REAL THEN HELP ME.”

As soon as I uttered those words, at that exact moment when they left my lips, my heart opened even further, and for the first time in nearly five years I began to pour tears like a baby. I had never cried like that in my entire life. It was as if the floodgates to my heart had exploded and the water rushed through my eyes as if rushing back to where it came from.

I became weak all over my body, and lightheaded to the point I had to lie back on the bed. As I tried stopping the flow of tears, the more I resisted, the heavier they persisted. I soon stopped fighting and allowed them to pour. I cried my heart out that night.

A long time went by as the tears continued without ceasing, then, the even stranger happened. I started having flashbacks of my past. They were vivid images of things I had done to myself and to others. It was as if a film projector from within my mind was replaying parts of my life. They were projections of bad things I had done and went back as far as my childhood. Some of these visions were of things I had forgotten all about; they were of every evil thing that I had ever done in my life.

My whole life was flashing in front of my eyes – one vision after another – they just kept coming. First, the vision and then the memory of it followed. They kept coming and coming for what seemed like an eternity and there were so many of them.

At first, I was at awe by it but soon afterward it freaked me out. It was very disheartening and emotionally overwhelming to see these memories replaying in my mind and I had no control over them. It was as if I was reliving my past.

As the visions continued, my heart began beating rapidly and I became short of breath. I was to the point where I was fighting to breathe, and then I became even more afraid. I realized in the deepest part of my spirit that this was an act of God. He suddenly became very real to me, more real than any tangible thing in this world. I felt the fear of death for the first time in my life that night. I knew that at that point I was dying and these memories of my past were my judgments and the reasons why I would be spending eternity in hell.

A dreadful and inexpressible feeling of fear overwhelmed me right then. My heart, my mind and my entire body was entrenched with anxiety. It was like nothing I had ever experienced before in my life. No words can express the level of fear I was going through. It was not natural, I assure you. It came from somewhere far more terrifyingly empty than any place here on earth and wherever it is, that fear was definitely a product of it.

Moments later, I fell to my knees beside the bed and began to pray but all I could say was, “I’m sorry, I’m sorry,” and “please forgive me.” The more I pleaded, the heavier the tears flowed.

After some moments, I sat back on the bed and reached for the bible once again, still trembling. As I picked it up, I began reading more. This time I focused on the next page. It no longer talked about sin or the condemnation of sin but talked about a way out of it through Jesus Christ and God’s forgiveness through him. And as quickly as all that fear came into me, it left and was replaced with an inexpressible feeling of joy, hope and promise.

Once again, I was enveloped by an indescribable level of emotion but this time it was very positive. My entire body submerged in a positive pool of emotional illumination. I cannot express it, but to say that the level of fear and shame I felt moments before was replaced tenfold by the joy I felt then. It was more amazing than anything I have ever experienced in my life . . . I wish I could walk in that feeling forever . . . it was truly amazing. I then went back to my knees beside the bed and closed my eyes to pray.

(I must stop now and explain something that is very important, because later on, I realized the significance. God did something else amazing.)

I grew in a small town back in the Midwest, in a southern Baptist Church. The name is not important but it taught that all “white people” were devils, among other false doctrines. Do not misunderstand me, not all Southern Baptists churches believe this way, it was just a deceived mind of the pastor of that particular church. What he believed was totally opposite of who and what God is. God is of love and loves us all the same without discriminating and more than what our minds are able to conceive.

Nevertheless, I remember growing up as a child thinking how it would be possible for half of me to go to heaven and the other half to hell . . . it was quite confusing and I quickly lost interest in the church and in God.

My point is this: no one ever taught me the correct ways of God or what the Holy Bible was really saying. No one ever taught me how to pray for forgiveness or that I should ask Christ into my heart. I did not even know what it meant to accept Christ into my heart. But that night, while I was on my knees the second time, I suddenly knew exactly what I should pray for and what I should say. It was as if God had planted the words directly into my heart, as I know he did.

The words came to my mind exactly like in the book of Romans 10:9.

. . .if you confess with your mouth Jesus as Lord, and believe in your heart that God has raised Him from the dead, you will be saved.

It was not an audible voice, but more like a knowing. It was as if I had always known the way to salvation, as if it had always been inside of me my whole life. In a sense, I guess it had been. It has always been in my spirit; it’s in all of our spirits. Thus, I spoke those words with belief and with expectation.

After I prayed and confessed Christ as my Lord and Saviour, I immediately felt a warm sensation enter into my body. Once again, it is difficult to describe the feeling but it was like a gentle electrical sensation, like pins and needles but softer and it filled my entire body from head to toe. Every hair stood up on end. (I later understood exactly what that sensation was . . . it was the Holy Sprit of God.) At that point, I was being changed from the inside, from deep within. All the way to the core of my existence, I knew it, because I felt it.

At that moment, I knew God had just entered my life and He was there to stay, to never leave nor forsake me. He had made a permanent home in my heart that night and I knew from that moment on it would never be the same again, nor would my life be.

Upon realizing this, I stood up and felt as if I were floating on a cloud of air, as if my feet were not touching the floor. All the heaviness, all that weight I had been carrying around with me my whole life had suddenly disappeared. It vanished in an instance. I felt a hundred pounds lighter, no, two hundred pounds lighter, as though the world lifted from my shoulders. I had been changed, made into a completely different person – a new person. It was as if I had been reborn – spiritually transformed.

Needless to say, the visions faded away completely. My mind cleared and there was no sign that I had done any drugs that night. Upon realizing all of this, I began crying all over again but this time they were tears of thankfulness.

Everything about me that night was replaced with newness. I knew that I just become a child of the Most High God and He was real and I was glad He was real. Furthermore, I knew that the God of love and compassion was about to lead me in a very new direction.

As I cried out, thanking him for what he had just done, I realized, or better yet, I was given a sense of release from everything that had kept me in bondage for so many years. Not only was the weight gone but also I knew that along with it went my addictions. Those chains that bound me had broken away and were gone forever. I knew it without a doubt; those controlling strongholds I had lived with most of my life, the depression, all of it, they were gone, gone forever. And indeed they are.

It was an amazing night; God miraculously changed my life in a blink of an eye. I realize now that He took me to the brink of death, let me feel what hell is like, and showed me all the reasons why I deserved to go there. He then brought me back from it all and offered me a reason for living, a reason for change and a second chance with him through Jesus Christ.

I find it hard to express to you how much this all means to me. But I was an atheist, at best an agnostic, even to that night, to that very hour to be exact. I even cursed God and hated anything to do with him. I was a thief and a liar and filled with thoughts of lust and deprivation.

I overflowed with anger, hate, depression, and hopelessness and was even suicidal but God loved me just the way I was and waited for the right moment to take it all away from me. In doing so, He did allow me to dig a hole so deep that I would hit rock bottom at which point I would have No Other Direction to look but up. He never forced himself on me, but waited patiently while conditioning my heart to receive him, and for that I am deeply in love with him.

It took me going to hell and back in more ways than one but you may not have to go that far. You can ask him right now to come into your life. He will remove from you whatever it is that is trying to destroy you.

You may feel like your life is just perfect, that everything is falling into place just the way it should be but if you accept Christ in your life it will be so much more profitable and so much more meaningful. More than you can ever imagine.